So at my last blog update, I was feeling a bit dejected having not passed sifts for some jobs I applied for. So far there is still nothing of interest to apply for. This is likely to change, as the restructure of the NHS will generate opportunities for someone like me. But this isn’t where my reflection has paid off.
My 5 year plan has been looking a bit sketchy on the 3-5 year part. Other than a better paid job, I have to be honest that I don’t really have a specific goal. There are no roles in the business I’m in that I really long to have. My ambition feels somewhat stifled. So what is the great epiphany? Well I don’t think I am destined to climb this particular greasy pole to the top, I think I want to change my career entirely and indulge my passion for the outdoors. In a nutshell, I have hatched a plan that will allow me to start up my own garden design business in the next 3-5 years, giving me the chance to escape my current desk-bound existence. Once this tiny idea hatched, everything else has made more sense, and I have been able to start turning this from an idea into a reality. My little red mentee notebook is now filling with ideas of how to make this a success. The course I need to enrol on, people I need to speak to about their experience of running their own small businesses, information about the market for this skill in the area where I live. What sort of income can this generate, what sort of companies I could be working for.
Having discussed this with my mentor, I am fired up with fresh enthusiasm and ambition. This isn’t just a heart decision, the head is getting involved too and making some good contributions as well. The reality of the situation is that I’m not quitting my job tomorrow and buying a new pair of wellies. My bank manager still requires a mortgage payment every month, but I have a plan for how to keep him happy and make this change too.
So I’m still risk averse, still obsessive about planning and still wanting to have a greater influence over my work area. Nothing about me has changed, but somehow the penny has dropped and I feel like the answer to my own happiness and career satisfaction is 100% in my own control again. And it feels great!